I´m a Food Addict

Today I watched Oprah´s last show on weight loss. It provokes such a frustration and turmoil in me. I can relate to many things but I don´t relate to many more. One of the things I truly relate to is to accept that "I´m a Food Addict", but then I ask myself who isn´t? And what degree of addiction do I have? Food Addiction has to be rated in levels, because I am certainly not a binge eater. I don´t hide from others eating an amount of food I shouldn´t. But do I eat more than I should in a normal meal... yes. So what level of addiction do I have!?
       When I see the amount of weight people have lost on these shows it consisted of years of hard work, not compared to the probably 4 to 6 months I would have to diet. Then by the time they have lost the weight they look a tad like I do!!!! So why do I feel like them when they were at their heaviest. I hate the age issue also, because I turned 31 and in an unconcious way that allows you to be a bit heavier than you were before... but why!??? Look at all those women who are in their 40´s or even 60´s and look better than I do!
      Where does the line stop? What is the limit? Goodness, what level of food addiction do I have?!!! I have to admit, I don´t count calories and that may be one of the reasons I am 20 pounds overweight. Inside I die everday to look like I did 10 years ago! I can´t believe that I am actualy wearing my mom´s jeans. And my inner vision of what I look like is probably not what a really look like! I know this. But I lie to myself everyday.
        So I always go to extremes.. and either diet to the extent that I can´t eat anything extra, which makes me lose my path quickly, or I eat everything on my plate and when given the opportunity eat everything I can try. So I´m going to try the middle option now.. I am actually going to start trying out portion control and counting calories and being a bit more active and being concious of what I look like and what I want to look like and what I do everyday to look better. So I´ll keep you posted on my process!
ME NOW (I´m the one in the gray striped shirt)....

ME THEN: (What I would like to look like again, what some friend have never seen me looking like):

I should behave better and love myself more....shouldn´t I!!!!????? Goodbye cupcakes......

 

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Where does time go?

I remember when I was younger. I used to do so many things in one day! I had time to do my nails, hair, homework, organizing, etc! But now I find myself asking "where does time go!!!???" Maybe before there wasn´t internet or computers at home, which easily can steal 2 hours away from the day for me. But I also realize that being a housewife is also why time flies.
Even thought I do a few basic chores in the day I find myself struggling with the clock! Maybe it´s because I´m also enoying my summer vacation. No work and no schedule to keep. I ask myself if things might change even more when my family grows.
Sometimes I can´t get to many of the important things that have to be done. You either have to plan your time or have to just do things as they come without caring. Today I cooked for myself and ate at 5:00 in the afternoon. Which is 3 hours later than I´m expected to have lunch at. But it was a delicious and healthy meal and I was able to fit in 40 min. of exercise, laundry, going to the supermarket, talking in skype, and taking a rented movie back... boy......do you think that was good time management, while enjoying my vacation for a period of 6 hours... I don´t know anymore!!!